"Precious footprints on our hearts that will never fade."
"Until we meet again, we will carry you in our hearts in everything we do."
"We will get eternity with you."
"Even before you existed."
"I grew you in my womb, felt your movements, your hiccups."
"You're the purest angel that there ever was."
"We know that you are in the arms of the Lord."
This portal was designed and built for you by your cousin Cole.
Cole designs content systems and builds digital tools for a living through his agency, Meger Media. Over the past decade he has developed a distinct voice, a set of writing frameworks, and a philosophy around how to communicate what matters most to the people you love. This portal was built using all of that — including an AI agent Cole built and trained on his own work, his voice, and his frameworks, which he used to generate the content throughout.
Cole had already built a similar kind of daily portal for his wife Lauren during one of the most significant seasons of her own life. When Val reached out and shared what you were walking through, and Lauren understood from her own experience what something like this could mean to you — they asked Cole if he could build something for you. That conversation is what started this. Their love for you is why it exists.
From there, Cole took it. He designed the entire system, structured every section, built the framework, and directed the AI agent he created to generate the content in a voice and tone consistent with his own — grounded in his decade of work, his faith perspective, and his understanding of your specific situation. Val answered a few specific questions to help get the personal details right. Lauren's experience of receiving something like this shaped the philosophy behind it. But the design, the structure, the intent behind every section, and every creative and strategic decision — that was Cole's from start to finish.
Nothing from Lauren's portal was borrowed. Everything here was built for Allie Elliott, by name, for this season.
There are no rules here. This is not a program to complete or a schedule to keep.
Open it when you want to. Skip days without guilt. Come back to an entry that hit you on a hard day. Stay on one day for a week if you need to. It will not judge you and it will not fall behind.
The four main tabs at the bottom of the screen are where everything lives:
On the Today screen, the Proverbs card is tappable — tap it to read the full chapter and a personal note from your pastor written for where you are right now.
The "From Other Mamas Who Know" section expands when you tap it and shows real words from real women who have walked through similar loss and found their way through.
Every time you open this portal, a few things update automatically.
Ryker's counter calculates itself each day from March 16, 2026. You never have to update it. It just knows.
The daily scripture at the top rotates through 90 hand-selected verses drawn from three categories: verses about children and their eternal value, verses about grief and God's nearness, and verses about a mother's strength. It cycles so that across any given week you encounter all three angles.
The Proverbs reading is determined by the day of the month. Proverbs has 31 chapters. Whatever today's date is, that is the chapter you get. It resets each month so it is always current.
Ryan's note cycles through 90 pre-written notes, one per day. They move with you through the days so they feel progressively suited to where you are in the journey.
The devotional entry moves forward one day at a time, but you can also navigate freely using the arrows or the Seasons tab. Nothing locks you in.
The mama quotes rotate every seven days and shift in tone as you move through the seasons — earlier weeks carry the rawness of early grief, later weeks lean more toward endurance and hope.
Every verse was selected specifically for your situation — not generic grief verses. Verses about infant loss, a mother's strength, God's nearness to the brokenhearted, eternal reunion, physical healing, and endurance in the long middle. Cole directed his AI agent with your specific circumstances so it could identify the verses that would speak most directly to you. The ones that made the cut are the ones that earned their place.
Each of the 31 Proverbs chapters has a written takeaway connecting the chapter to what you are going through — generated through Cole's framework, specifically for a grieving, recovering mother, not a general audience. When you tap a Proverbs card, you read the full chapter and a pastoral note written in the voice of Pastor Josh Howerton of Lakepointe Church, applied directly to your season of grief and recovery.
All 90 devotional entries were generated through Cole's content framework, built specifically around your situation. They move through four seasons: Stillness, Grief, Endurance, and Returning. Each entry has a scripture, an anchor truth, permission language that releases you from guilt, a gentle reflection question, a physical recovery reminder, and a closing line. None of it was written for a general grief audience. All of it was shaped around Allie Elliott — a nurse, a mother, a woman of faith, recovering from a traumatic accident while grieving Ryker and carrying Bryleigh and Mama Velda in her heart.
Ryan carries more than enough already. Cole generated all 90 daily notes using his AI agent so Ryan does not have to carry this too. They were shaped to sound like Ryan — blue collar, few words, real warmth underneath. Nothing flowery. Nothing that puts pressure on you. Just a husband showing up in a sentence or two, every day, because he loves you.
The letters were generated through Cole's framework as starting points — from Ryan, from the land, from Mimi and Papa, from your own body, and one from Ryan to Ryker, Bryleigh, and Mama Velda. Some are placeholders Ryan or family can personalize. Some are complete as written. Each one is meant for a specific kind of moment: the nights that are too quiet, the days the guilt hits hardest, the day you take your first steps again.
These are real words from real women who have experienced stillbirth, infant loss, and pregnancy loss and found their way through. They were sourced from documented communities, interviews, published memoirs, grief therapists, and loss advocacy organizations. Every quote was screened — anything that ended in hopelessness was removed. Only the ones that return to hope, love, legacy, or resilience made it in. They are here because Cole wanted you to know you are not the only woman who has stood in this exact place and still found her way back.
Because you deserved something that meets you exactly where you are.
Not a card. Not a text. Not a generic grief resource written for anyone and no one. Something built with your name on it. Something that knows Ryker's name and Bryleigh's name and Mama Velda's name. Something that knows you are a nurse and a homesteader and a homeschooling mama and a woman of faith who is also in physical therapy relearning how to walk. Something that holds all of that at once and shows up with it every single day.
Cole built this because he already knew how to. He had built something similar for Lauren — and from that experience, combined with a decade of his own writing, frameworks, and voice, he designed an AI agent trained specifically on his work. That agent is what generated the content throughout this portal — the devotional entries, the Ryan notes, the Proverbs takeaways, the letters, the pastor notes — all of it produced through Cole's frameworks, in a voice shaped by his own.
Cole directed every part of it. He designed the system, structured each section, determined the purpose and philosophy behind every element, and used the tools he built to bring it to life. Val answered a few questions to get the specific personal details right. Lauren's experience of having received something like this guided the heart behind it. But the creative vision, the design decisions, and the framework that shaped everything here — that was Cole.
He wanted you to open your phone on a hard Tuesday morning and feel like something was made just for that Tuesday. Because it was. All of it was made for you.
This portal will be here as long as you need it. The seasons repeat. The scripture keeps rotating. Ryan's notes keep coming. Ryker, Bryleigh, and Mama Velda's page never goes anywhere.
You are loved by more people than you know, in more ways than you can see right now. This is just one of them made visible.