"Precious footprints on our hearts that will never fade."
"Until we meet again, we will carry you in our hearts in everything we do."
"We will get eternity with you."
"Even before you existed."
"I grew you in my womb, felt your movements, your hiccups."
"You're the purest angel that there ever was."
"We know that you are in the arms of the Lord."
This portal was built for you by your cousin Cole.
Cole designs and builds content systems for a living through his agency, Meger Media. He has spent years creating tools that help people communicate what matters most. But this one is different from anything he has built professionally. This one is family.
It would not exist without Val and Lauren. Val carried the heart behind it — she knew what you needed, she brought it to Cole, and she guided every decision about what it should feel and say. Lauren's love shaped the soul of it. Cole had already built a version of this kind of daily portal for Lauren during one of the most significant seasons of her own life. It was Val and Lauren together who came to Cole and asked him to build something like it for you. Their love for you, and their understanding of what you were carrying, is what made this possible.
Cole designed it, structured it, wrote every word of it, and built it from scratch. But it exists because two women who love you deeply said: she needs something like this. And Cole agreed.
Nothing from Lauren's portal was borrowed. Everything in this one was written for Allie Elliott, by name, for this specific season — your grief, your recovery, your faith, your family, your land.
There are no rules here. This is not a program to complete or a schedule to keep.
Open it when you want to. Skip days without guilt. Come back to an entry that hit you on a hard day. Stay on one day for a week if you need to. It will not judge you and it will not fall behind.
The four main tabs at the bottom of the screen are where everything lives:
On the Today screen, the Proverbs card is tappable — tap it to read the full chapter and a personal note from your pastor written for where you are right now.
The "From Other Mamas Who Know" section expands when you tap it and shows real words from real women who have walked through similar loss and found their way through.
Every time you open this portal, a few things update automatically.
Ryker's counter calculates itself each day from March 16, 2026. You never have to update it. It just knows.
The daily scripture at the top rotates through 90 hand-selected verses drawn from three categories: verses about children and their eternal value, verses about grief and God's nearness, and verses about a mother's strength. It cycles so that across any given week you encounter all three angles.
The Proverbs reading is determined by the day of the month. Proverbs has 31 chapters. Whatever today's date is, that is the chapter you get. It resets each month so it is always current.
Ryan's note cycles through 90 pre-written notes, one per day. They move with you through the days so they feel progressively suited to where you are in the journey.
The devotional entry moves forward one day at a time, but you can also navigate freely using the arrows or the Seasons tab. Nothing locks you in.
The mama quotes rotate every seven days and shift in tone as you move through the seasons — earlier weeks carry the rawness of early grief, later weeks lean more toward endurance and hope.
Every verse in this portal was hand-selected for your specific situation. Not generic grief verses. Verses about infant loss, about a mother's strength, about God being near to the brokenhearted, about eternal reunion, about a body healing, about endurance in the long middle. Cole went through the Bible looking for the verses that could speak directly to you. The ones that made the cut are the ones that earned their place.
Each of the 31 Proverbs chapters has a written takeaway that connects the chapter to what you are going through. These were written specifically for a grieving, recovering mother — not for a general audience. When you tap a Proverbs card, you read the full chapter and a pastoral note written in the voice of Pastor Josh Howerton of Lakepointe Church, applied directly to your season of grief and recovery.
All 90 devotional entries were written from scratch, specifically for you. They move through four seasons: Stillness, Grief, Endurance, and Returning. Each entry has a scripture, an anchor truth, permission language that releases you from guilt, a gentle reflection question, a physical recovery reminder, and a closing line. None of them were written for a general grief audience. They were written for Allie Elliott, a nurse and mother and woman of faith, recovering from a traumatic accident while grieving the loss of Ryker and carrying Bryleigh in her heart alongside him.
Ryan carries more than enough already. He is running a business, tending the land, raising the kids, and showing up for you every day. Cole wrote all 90 of his daily notes so Ryan does not have to carry this too. They were written to sound like Ryan — blue collar, few words, real warmth underneath. Nothing flowery. Nothing that puts pressure on you. Just a husband showing up in a sentence or two, every day, because he loves you.
The letters were written as a starting point — from Ryan, from the land, from Mimi and Papa, from your own body, and one written as if from Ryan directly to Ryker and Bryleigh. Some of them are placeholders Ryan or family can personalize. Some of them are complete as written. They are meant to be opened in specific moments: the nights that are too quiet, the days the guilt hits hardest, the day you take your first steps again.
These are real words from real women who have experienced stillbirth, infant loss, and pregnancy loss and found their way through. They were sourced from documented communities, interviews, published memoirs, grief therapists, and loss advocacy organizations. Every single quote was screened — anything that ended in hopelessness or tragedy was removed. Only the ones that return to hope, love, legacy, or resilience made it in. They are here because Cole wanted you to know you are not the only woman who has stood in this exact place and still found her way back.
Because you deserved something that meets you exactly where you are.
Not a card. Not a text. Not a generic grief resource written for anyone and no one. Something built with your name on it. Something that knows Ryker's name and Bryleigh's name. Something that knows you are a nurse and a homesteader and a homeschooling mama and a woman of faith who is also in physical therapy relearning how to walk. Something that holds all of that at once and shows up with it every single day.
Cole built this because he already knew how to. He had built something similar for Lauren — a daily portal that surrounded her with truth and love during one of the most significant seasons of her life. That experience, and Lauren's own understanding of what it meant to receive something like that, is part of what made this possible. Lauren knew what you needed because she had felt what it was to be held by something built specifically for her. She wanted that for you.
Val brought it to Cole and guided it every step of the way. She knew what you were carrying. She knew what would help. She made sure the right person built it and that it said the right things. Her love for you is in the tone of every entry, the permission given on every page, the gentleness of every word.
Cole designed it, structured it, programmed it, and wrote every word of the 90 devotional entries, 90 Ryan notes, 31 Proverbs takeaways, all the letters, all the scripture selections, and all the pastoral notes. It took time and it took care and it was worth both.
This portal will be here as long as you need it. There are 90 days of content, but nothing stops you from cycling back through it. The seasons repeat. The scripture keeps rotating. Ryan's notes keep coming. Ryker and Bryleigh's page never goes anywhere.
You are loved by more people than you know, in more ways than you can see right now. This is just one of them made visible.